Time is on my side…

 I don’t know how long I had my brain tumor. I think I had it back in high school. It was so big by the time it was identified. I named it Bert. I’m just now getting to know myself because I biologically had a reason to act a certain way. It’s crazy now to think about how I acted. Now that the tumor is gone I’m finally responding to things like a regular human being. Before tumor removal, I was really quick to react negatively to any criticism I received and I got a lot from work. What a surprise?! I had a brain tumor! A BRAIN TUMOR. My life completely changed over the course of a single surgery. I do believe that some of us are sent here to teach the lessons and some of us are sent here to learn them. I almost died. The ICU nurse said I was in danger of falling asleep and never waking up. How’s that for a dose of reality? I’m not being extra or dramatic. It’s a fact. I’m essentially an adult child because I’m experiencing things for the first time.

I was just talking to my friend about the symptoms I had before I was diagnosed and I really remembered how it went down. Time is a crazy thing. I was fainting, vomiting, my balance was off, my alcohol tolerance would randomly change, I was dizzy and I had double vision. It was scary but I survived. It’s important to remember to not let yourself be bogged down by stuff that isn’t important. Being bogged down is easy but be careful because it’s also dangerous. It guarantees that you’re not actually paying attention to what is going on. I was too bogged down to notice what was really happening. I was really sick.