Replay

 I do this thing where I replay things that have happened in my mind. I’ve done this since childhood. I fixate on situations and I just go over them again and again with not what I wished happened but how it actually happened. After just casually dropping that I thought it was gross that a stupid white girl covered parts of herself in mud and claimed that a black man attacked her, I was sought out by her brother and called mean. I keep replaying it and not at any single point was I told that I was misinformed. The relationship between him and me is gone forever. He actually had the audacity to bring up the fact that I was mixed race. Are you kidding me? The goal of hurting my feelings was completely missed and he made himself look stupid. 

I’d prefer not have a relationship with someone who doesn’t understand why I don’t like what she did. I’ll sacrifice any relationship over having principles or what I feel is personal integrity. I wouldn’t have had any relationship with my female cousin if I had known. I freely admit that. Neither her nor I cared to engage in an argument but her brother (my cousin) sure did. Bye Felicia! What happened with my female cousin was an event that took place over 30 years ago and what took place with my male cousin happened like a week ago. I went from grossed out to personally offended. I will NEVER talk to him again. I’ve been through too much just to have a family member take me down. He can go kick rocks.