The only one you can count on
I oftentimes think what could I have possibly done in a past life to deserve this? I had a terrible boyfriend. When I was really getting sick and I was losing my balance. I needed help walking around. One time he was guiding me and walked me directly into a chair. I already had issues with trusting people and I trusted him and he totally abused it. He wasn’t there right before my brain surgery. I really wanted him when I was in the hospital recovering and would call for him when I saw him. He would step out of my line of vision like I was a baby with no object permanence. Like if I couldn’t see him he wouldn’t exist.
He bought a motorcycle when I was in the hospital. Motorcycles are really dangerous and I expressed that to him. As soon as I was in the hospital he got one. We were living together (we were together for a little over two years) and he gathered most of my things and put a plastic tarp over it.WTF?! Like I wasn’t dealing with a lot. I had to endure this too. I really liked holidays but because he didn’t believe in them I wasn’t allowed to celebrate them.
He was also absent during my stay at the nursing home. He also decided to pick up a shift because his boss called him WHILE he was actually visiting me. It’d be one thing if his job was really important but it was a restaurant job. If he said no she would just call the next person on the list. He also lied to me all the time and about stupid stuff. Anyway, I was really unhappy and I’m glad it’s over. I don’t know what I needed but I certainly didn’t need that.
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