Can’t Means Won’t

 When I was a child I used to ice skate. Oddly enough figure skating is really coming in handy. It required a lot of visualization, muscle memory and a relentless need to get “it” right. I learned that “can’t” means “won’t.” I have a “can’t means won’t” attitude towards therapy. When I’m not sure if I can do a task, I’ll try it anyway. You never know what you’re capable of unless you try.

I think that’s why I like for my therapists to explain why I’m doing something. I just find it so helpful to know why I’m doing something. There’s a piece of blue foam that I just WON’T do. You stand on it and I’m not shy about telling people that I won’t do it. Apparently, you experience balance a number of ways. Among them, you can visually establish balance and you can feel it (hence the blue foam.) I consider standing on foam (at this point) just doesn’t make sense. I’m just trying to stand. An advanced task like foam is really extra and totally unhelpful.

Like I said there’s very little I won’t try. You’ll never know what works for you until you try. I just want to get “better” whatever that means. I work hard in therapy. It’s so important. I think I’m having a positive round of therapy because I’ll try and do all sorts of stuff. I only say I can’t do something if I’ve tried and failed at “it.”