Communication

 Communication is really difficult for me. I can only type with one finger. I took keyboarding classes in school. I wanted to type faster so in college I would play typing games.

I’m old now or considered old. I remember playing the game Oregon Trail. Pogs were also a thing (what did they even do?) Trolls were popular and the internet was just beginning. I grew up with a landline phone. These have nothing to do with my brain tumor. I just keep recalling things I used to do or have. I’m hit with nostalgia from growing up.

Like most things, I had to get used to typing with one finger. I can’t speak clearly so I’m very intentional about what I say or type. It’s surprising how much people talk but communicate very little. It’s frustrating to listen to fluff. It happens all the time.

It’s also a task to deal with people who are “regular” but are comfortable with silence. It’s so awkward because I have difficulty speaking and others need silence to be filled. Again, I understand everything but I can’t speak clearly. It’s really unfair and uncool when I have to fill a silence.