Smile and nod

 I really really don’t like it when I say something and it’s not understood and the person just smiles and nods. I know when it’s happening and it’s really not helpful to anybody. The person that I’m talking to doesn’t have any idea what I said and I have no idea what was unclear. Maybe it’s a certain word and maybe it’s the whole sentence. I would rather repeat myself then be humored. I’m trying to recover from brain surgery, I don’t care if I have to repeat myself.

The only way to learn is to be asked to repeat myself. I don’t even know how many times I’ve been smiled and nodded at. It makes me not want to speak and that isn’t helpful to my recovery. I’m trying to bounce back and some people just really drag me down. I’m trying to relearn how to speak here and what exactly are you doing by smiling and nodding? You’re just signaling to me that you’re not interested in having an actual conversation with me.

Sometimes I laugh at a smile and a nod. Don’t get me wrong, it’s super frustrating when I’m not understood. It’s incredibly funny when it doesn’t make sense to me when a person just smiles and nods as a response to something I’ve said. The reaction just doesn’t make sense and I can’t help how funny I find it.